| i feel like im lost right now and i dont know what to do. i know theres something missing but i dont know what.
where can i find it to fill the deep void in my heart. what im feeling right now, it is as if the world keeps on running
but only i have fallen out of the cycle and i am staring at the people as they live their normal lives, but not one
knows what their doing and just lives the way they believe until the sweet relese of death befalls on them. The
meaning of life, i feel as if if that answer is told i can rejoin the pathetic wheel of life. Some say that the one and
only meaning is God and no questions asked. Well i have questions but when i ask noone has the answer,
does that not mean that they are living their lives not knowing how to either? doesnt that mean the people who
think they have all the questions answered and holds all the keys actually have absolutely nothing and are underneith
asking the same questions themselves? I have asked God i prayed to God and my wonderings were not answered.
Then those idiots that think that finding the one person in the world for them is the goal to achieve in life. I think thats
bullshit. how many people actually marry outside their race. Probably a lot but not over half so what if the real person u
are looking for are from a different place than u. So i gave up on that idea. im just searching for the right answers and
looking for the right keys to unlock the door which traps the truth behind it. If u know the answer please tell me. for i am
searching aimlessly and becoming restless looking for the one meaning of life. |
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| the day that i die
will u be there?
at least mourn for me
share some despair
as im suffering
all i can think of is u
but all u can see is him
my heart breaks in 2
weep for me
just squeeze one tear
let me be close to ur heart
let me be near
but i guess u dare not
drop one single drop
for u despise me
from bottom to top
i see ur fake smile
ur disgusted face
every time u look at me
i feel so disgraced
from the tip of my head
to the toes on my feet
u just wanna go stop
the day we meet
ill just leave this world
leave u to be
for i know how u feel
hatred for me
but please i beg u
oh please just try
shed one tear
the day that i die |
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| If i get to chose one thing
id chose how id die
i want it to be beutiful
and make everyone cry
i want my death
to be so great
something noone
can immitate
everyone will know
my spetacular name
ill be hanging forever
in deaths wall of fame
the way i wanna die
theres something u have to do
i want to die that moment
when hugged too tightly by u |
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| yea yea another dumbass poem im sry lol
try to push u away
try to leave u behind
try so hard
cant get u outa mah mind
losing strength
losing control
cant think straight
lost my soul
played the game
lost it all
cant recover
from this fall
gambled away
my last hope
god im stupid
wut a dope
nothing is perfect
nothing is fine
just laying there
thinking bout dying
wut would it be like
to lose my spirit
will my life flashback
will i see it?
if thats really true
just show me one part
where we first fell in love
from the very start |
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| just took my weekly hour bath ahhhh feel so good love baths lol im such a girly guy ;p hmmmm well lets see this week went to school played rag some watched chobit ahhh so relaxing all the time except i cant sleep very wel...and too much thoughts in my head...well at leastcompared to how many are usually in there lol now im just listening to music and having a good time i wish i had gone out today but i over slept and had to stay home boo hoo...well see u all 2morrow at church |
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